I miss writing under a pseudonym. I don't have to go through being fearful of what others might think of me. As of this writing, I am 23 years old, with my special someone for 6 months now, and unfortunately on the rocks. But that's another story.
The last time I read a book was...I can't even the remember. The last time I watched a movie by myself was...I can't remember either. It's been quite a long time since I've done something new or exciting. I'm still in search of my "middle ground" in life. Still re-aligning my principles and setting my goals in life.
I'm an artist by profession (I won't tell what kind, at least for now) and I've been in this kind of industry for almost a year now. To be honest, I feel like a mediocre. A big fat joke in the world of designing; trying to fit in, wanting to be heard, but unworthy of the attention.
I'm probably hard on myself because as of late, I've been feeling like I missed a lot of things in my life. There are a lot of "what-could-have been". And there are a lot of things I regret doing.
Probably the real reason why I put up this blog is because I need an outlet. And also to document my progress as a person. I haven't heard from my friends for a long time now. And sometimes I'd like to think they're apathetic. But of course they have their own lives to focus on. I'm not that selfish naman.
Another reason I decided to create another blog is because I've been following this guy's blog and I'm totally hooked. He blogs about his life, his realizations, his music and book reviews. Basically anything under the sun. Reading him through his blog, I kinda share his achievements. It feels like I'm also a part of his daily life. And I miss the old days when I was still writing my heart out. And now I gotta be careful because a lot of people know me online AND offline.
Anyway, that's it for now. 'Till the next post. Have a great work week ahead of you!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
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am sorry to hear that you and partner are going through a rough patch. i hope things turn out okay in the end. tench, as your friend i'd like to encourage you to continue writing, not only because it does help you come to grips with whatever pressures you're going through, but more importantly, because you write well. it's a skill you shouldn't take for granted. you can be like that blogger you're hooked on; write, and we'll read you. :)
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