Itigil na kaya natin 'to?

Sinabi ko yan sa kanya kanina.

Pabiro. Half-meant.

After dinner it started sinking in.

A's leaving for Australia 6 months from now and it tears me piece by piece knowing that he's determined to pursue his Master's far away from here, for one whole year.

I told him I can't wait that long, 1 year is a very long time. Even a month can be drastic for a *possibbly* budding relationship. And I don't think I'd want to be in that situation.

Ang bilis. Ilang weeks palang nahumaling na kami sa isa't-isa.

Don't get me wrong. I've never been particular with looks. One of the things that made me head-over-heels for him is his determination to pursue things he wants. His scholarship is his easy ticket. I want him to leave and pursue his dream.

So what happens now? Do we put this dance of ours into a halt?

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Was listening to Migs' podcast together with McVie and Gibbs. For a while I thought they were talking about me. Just so happens na Troika rin ang drama ko ngayon.

Though I'm no longer with C, it still feels like it. Feels like somehow, deep down, I'm cheating on him. Just a few hours ago we were exchanging SMS, telling him that A and I are dating. I'm not sure how he took it, but I know that he understood why I'm dating this soon.

It could be that like what McVie said on the podcast, that I might have just convinced myself that this new guy is the right person for me. Hence, me ending up leaving C.

Ah ewan. Lecheng pag-ibig 'to.