The week that was.

God. The weather here in Manila is just too much. I just got off the shower this morning and in less than 2 minutes, I was already sweating like hell without even doing anything.

And to add to that, my emotional turmoil isn't helping.

A lot of things happened after my previous entry. It's still overwhelmingly fast and a bit shocking.

Well to start, it so happens that last week for some odd reason, C and A found out about this blog which I was supposed to keep especially from them. So much for keeping it under a pseudonym. And silly me, keeping a journal ONLINE. I mean WTF, right? So the least I can do is change my URL.


It must've been hard for C to read the details about the time A and I got very intimate. I'm sure it crushed his heart. It also must have been difficult for A to find out that I felt like shit after doing what we did.

Sabi ng friends ko ang haba daw ng hair ko. Pero sa totoo lang, I don't even want to be in this position. I'm not the type of guy who deliberately puts himself in this situation and enjoys the egoistic experience.

I don't think it even is egoistic. It's more of "fucked up", I think.

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Last week, C and A agreed to meet up and just talk over beer. Kumusta naman ang kaba ko nang malaman ko yun. Siguro, C wanted to know kung sinong pumalit sa kanya or something like that. Though I know that it'd hurt him a lot, I really can't blame him, I think I would do the same if it happened to me too.

Alam ko namang hindi si C ang tipo na basagulero. Quite surprisingly, I think they ended up being "friends" -- that's how they like to call themselves, but I don't buy it. How can can they be when both of 'em are trying to win me?

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The next day C and I met up. I agreed to treat him over dinner since he recently signed a contract with LBC main office as a Graphic Designer. He's finally got a job! This is such a big break for him since he'll be handling promotional materials nationwide.

He only reached 1st year college and was chosen over Fine Arts graduates during the deliberation. I'm so proud of him and I hope he knows that.

Friends often ask me what happens to us now since he's already back on his feet. And what happens to A?


C wanted me back and wanted to prove himself to me. But it felt like I already gave him a chance. And I told him I wanna give A a chance this time. He said he'll wait for his turn. It doesn't feel right.

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Last night, A and I had a fight over SMS. His remarks hurt me a bit that it made me aloof the whole day. (Take note: hindi pa kami, huh?)

Just now, my officemate Maria went over my work station and handed me a box of brownies. On top of it was a post-it with a short note and "P.S. Sorry".

Galing pala kay A. Touched ako. Abot-tenga ang ngiti ko :)

Sige nga, bati na kami.